Updates. + back on Tinder..

A few updates on recent posts:
I gave Jeff a BOM a week or so after that conversation, and he gratefully took it. A few days after that I asked him if he'd read any of it, which he hadn't. Nor had he even read or seen my note inside the front. Ha. I told him to read the note. He said he did flip through the book though, which I told him was a good start. :) He said he'd read my note.

We got to the second night of our volleyball tournament, and had a real chance for a tshirt, but lost by THREE points in the last game that would have gotten us to the championship game. Ugghhh! Such a disappointment. It was a really good game though, and such a fun season! We're planning on playing again in the fall when the league starts up again.

It was about a month ago that I ran into Elder Adam Davies at the gym, and haven't seen or heard from him since, haha. I was really hoping to after that, he was really on my mind for a bit after that, and I added him on fb, invited him to the Narrows, looked through his fb stuff, and was then even more interested in getting to know him, he seemed like a great, normal, fun guy. But alas, haven't heard a peep from him or seen him again. I'm sure I will see him again sometime at the gym, but this week, I looked him up again, and I decided that I'm not actually that interested anymore. Not for any huge reason, and if he asked me out I would definitely say yes and would be excited, but just some things he has posted or what not made me think that maybe he's not my type after all. So no big deal.

I can't remember what else I had written about...oh my guitar class! That ended a couple weeks ago, but I loved it, and I learned so much! I'm definitely taking the next one in the fall. It also definitely has made me a better guitar player. I practice more, and I enjoy practicing even more. I like playing with Jamie more because I can keep up a little better, and have even been able to teach her some things. It's been so fun! I'm on my way to being that girls camp guitarist after all...(a legitimate bucket list goal of mine).

Haven't heard from Spencer at all since the last ending, thank heavens! I still kind of shudder at the thought. But since it all ended, I feel like I've gotten my life back. He really did a number on me and really affected me. Crazy. And crazy stressful and scary. "Fight Song" by Rachel Platten has been my I'm-done-with-Spencer song. Totally pumps me up and has helped me really move on and leave him and thoughts of him behind. I'm so grateful for my family for helping me through it, and I'm so grateful that experience is over. I still feel like it was a significant life experience that was meant to happen, but I wouldn't wish it on anyone or ever want to go through it again.

There are no other guys in my life. Not even any potentials. I've been on LDSMatchup.com for a little while, because I felt like I should get on it, and wanted something, but not Tinder. But it's turned out to be pretty lame. It's the Tinder for Mormons. That's its tagline. But it's kind of lame. Much less people on it. Less user friendly. I've chatted with a few guys, but nothing has come of any of them. No dates. One guy actually wanted to go out to eat and gave me his number and said I could give him mine, so I did, but then I never heard from him. Surprise, surprise.

Darren is back to texting me though. I was glad to hear from him the other day, because I was happy that he didn't hate me. But from things he asks me and says, I know he wants to see me still, or seems to have even wanted to talk to me on the phone the other night. Seemed like that's what he was getting at. But I just kind of avoid the situations. I don't know what else to do. He's too nice, I can't just ignore him. But I just have no desire to see him or do anything with him, really. I wish I did.

But speaking of Tinder, I just got back on tonight, actually. I haven't wanted to for a long time, since I got off after the Spencer drama. But lately I've been thinking more about it, and it seems a lot of people that I know have gotten married or are getting married or are dating from meeting on Tinder. So I've kind of wanted to give it another try, but then the thought of it, and of dating, and first dates, and trudging through the trash and the lame guys, just sounds so exhausting. So I've been very hesitant. I downloaded the app again a few days ago, but didn't set up a new account til just tonight. So we'll see what it brings. I'm being even more picky than before. So I swipe right on very few guys. Not very many seem real appealing to me. So yeah, we'll see.

But better go to bed, tomorrow (today) is Memorial Day, and I'm excited to do family stuff. And to go to Dylan's grave because I bought some Mario K'nex characters for all the kids to build, and then we're going to super glue them to these metal skewers I bought, and stick them in the ground at his grave. Excited for that.
Goodnight!