Beginning of the ROB saga (the EXCITING part!)

Man, I can't keep up with what's happening in here!

So less than 48 hours after this amazing answer to prayers of being able to talk to Isaac, a prayer that I had been praying nearly daily for weeks was also answered! And in the most miraculous and complete way!!

So at the beginning of the summer we started a new dinner group and in it was Joseph Sowa, and he brought along his brother, John, to be in the group too. One of John's roommates is a man by the name of Rob Martin, an attractive person, who also happens to be one of our stake institute teachers (teaches every other tuesday). He's 27, graduated, just working.

So at the beginning of the summer we had so many people in our dinner group that we only cooked once every three weeks (we had 12 people). The first time John cooked, we of course ate over at his apt, at Academy Arms (not in our ward, just down the street a couple blocks) and there we met John's roommates, Enoch, Tyler, and Rob.

I was most interested in getting to know Rob better, but there were a bunch of us there, and a few of them, and it would have been weird if I had just singled him out to talk to. So I just casually tried to get to know each of them a little.

Then three weeks later we were there again for dinner and this time I was the last one there, because of a test I had taken, and I ended up being at the table by myself for dinner. I started chatting with Rob, complimenting him on his lesson that week, and so he came over and sat down at the table with me, and we chatted for a min. But they had a political debate on tv, which he had been sort of watching, and I didn't want to take him away from it, so I didn't try to talk to him a whole lot more. He eventually got up and went back to the couch, which is when I regretted not trying to talk to him more.

But chatting with him just for those couple minutes or what not was really great, and I felt like he and I could really get along. I really wanted to get to know him better. Like really bad. I started feeling really strongly about this. Not like he was the one strongly, but I just really wanted to get to know him better and see perhaps what could come of it.

So I started praying for this, for the opportunity to get to know him better--to run into him somewhere or be able to talk to him at institute or something. So for weeks, literally, this was part of my prayer, daily. Literally. And I couldn't really do much to make this happen because I hardly ever saw him. Only at institute, and every three weeks for dinner group (except John ended up only cooking those 2 times I think, then kind of dropped out or something, and went out of town). So to help Heavenly Father help me, I attended institute very faithfully, I even started going running outside to run past his apartment complex, just in case he might be outside or something.

So then, it was the Tuesday right after that Sunday that I miraculously got to talk to Isaac, and I was excited to go to institute and see Isaac, and hopefully sit by him, like we often had, because I wasn't annoyed with him anymore, and I was actually excited to see him cuz things were so good between us now.

Then part way through the day I thought to myself, "he's not going to be there. Because I'm excited to see him, he's not even going to be there." But then I thought, well, if he's not there, maybe I'll get to talk to Rob.

So I went, and Isaac didn't show up, and I couldn't see Rob. And I thought, "Why did I even come??" Literally, those two males were the reason I went that night. Then I felt like I was wasting my time there, when I needed to study for a test anyway. So I studied for my test nearly the whole time (but it was for Pearl of Great Price, so it was okay:). I did get things out of institute too, don't worry.

So institute ends, the prayer is said, and I hadn't even gotten up yet, and I look over and there suddenly is Rob Martin, out of the blue, at the end of our aisle. I was the second seat in, and we made eye contact, and he looked like he wanted to say something to me, but felt kind of awkward or nervous, and I couldn't believe he was right there, and so I said hey, and started talking to him. He asked what had happened to the dinner group, basically why we hadn't been over in a while, and I had told him John had dropped out or something, that we hadn't heard from him in a while.

Anyway, long story short, we ended up walking out together and stood there chatting for like 20 minutes, until nearly everyone was gone, and then we headed out and walked home together. The whole time I couldn't believe I was actually talking to him and that it was going SO well.

Oh, funny sidenote, so one of the first things he said to me once we got out in the hall was (as he looked down at my shoes--I was wearing my Chacos, of course), "I like your shoes." And I looked down and said thanks, and then looked at his, and HE WAS WEARING THE SAME SHOES!! Chacos, but not only Chacos, BACKLESS Chacos, which I never see anyone wearing. He was only the second person ever that I've seen wearing backless ones. His were brown, while mine were black, but it was amazing. We stood there and had a whole conversation about our shoes, Chacos. I thought I had surely found the one. :)

On the way home we ended up talking about frisbee golf, which he plays avidly, and I told him I'd never played, to which he asked if I had ever wanted to learn, to which I said yes, I actually had, to which he then told me that John and he were going to go in the next couple days, and I was more than welcome to come. I asked when, and he said in the afternoon probably, to which I, disappointedly told him that I had this thing called school, which he said he'd heard of...

Anyway, we tried to figure out a time that would work, and we ended up in front of BDA, and he told me not to worry, that we could raincheck and go another time. Then he was like, "Let me get your number," which I was freaking out about inside--YES!!!! I think the angels may have even started singing. Then he was like, "Here, I'll text you so you have mine." Smart man. Love this.

Soon we came to a lull in the conversation and I'm sure he was about to leave, when I spontaneously decided to extend an invitation I had rehearsed in my head many a time, to be used in a situation just like this. A few months ago I had learned that it was possible to roast marshmallow and do s'mores on the Bell Tower lights, and ever since, I have wanted to try it, naturally. So I had many a times imagined getting into a great conversation with Rob (or any other guy would have been fine too, but I most often imagined it with Rob, as I had been praying for such to happen for weeks) and then asking if he had ever done that, and then asking if he would want to go do it with me.

So I did. I wasn't as smooth as I had always rehearsed me being in my head, but I suggested it, he'd never done it either, and he said sure. We ended up going basically right then. We went up to my apt to get the stuff, got in my car and drove to the store to get chocolate and tin foil, and then went to the Bell Tower.

It totally didn't work (we weren't doing it exactly right, I later found out), but it was a lot of fun to just talk. We chatted and chatted, about all kinds of things, during the whole adventure. I took him home and he was like, "well, I'll let you know about frisbee golf." And I said yeah, do, or something. And then he got out and went inside and I drove home, in disbelief of what had just happened.

Now telling the story in here, or to anyone else, it doesn't sound as miraculous as it truly was. Without physically doing it, I was bouncing off the walls. I couldn't contain myself. I had to tell someone. I almost texted or called my new chemistry lab friend, Ashley, who was one of the very few that even knew I was interested in this guy that taught Institute, but instead texted Sally, to ask if she was still awake. Thankfully, she was.

So I called her and told her and Joe the whole story, every amazing detail, practically hyperventilating the whole time. I was in shock of what had just happened. I seriously couldn't believe it. It was the most miraculous and completely answered prayer I had ever had (that's how I felt that night). It truly was the most amazing answer to prayer. I wish I had written in here that night, because if I had, the entry would have sounded something like this:

OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAA! The most amazing thing just happened to me!!!! Aaaaa!!!!! I can't believe it!!! I finally got to know ROB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And it was amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yep, definitely would have been something very similar to that. :) I really was SO excited and so could NOT believe what had just happened. I definitely was NOT able to focus for a long time after that, when I really needed to read for my first aid test in the morning... needless to say, I was up late reading. :) But it was totally TOTALLY worth it. :)

A happy ending? to the Isaac saga

Holy cow, so much to update on in the last eight days. So many great things (Isaac, Rob, and then an amazing weekend in ID)!

So to start with: an update, and finally a good one, on the Isaac saga. So about nine days ago, it was the end of the week, and I couldn't stop thinking about the whole Isaac situation, and how he apparently was dating Kindal, but was still flirting with me (the Sunday before, here at our apt, that episode), and by the end of that week, I just wanted to be able to talk to him about it and get it off my chest and clear the air. Oh, I remember. I basically stopped flirting back with him because I was so irritated that he was flirting with me when as far as I knew he was dating someone, from what I had been told my Jenni in the ward, and from his lack of response when I asked him directly via text the Sunday before. So I was not being the usual friendly, flirtatious me around him, just a nice person, just treating him like everyone else, and after a couple days of that, I felt like he noticed and wasn't as excited around me, and then it was just weird between us and I didn't like it. Like at the ward water party at Rock Canyon park that Saturday.

So I decided I had to talk to him about it all and get my questions answered and clear the air.

So Sunday morning I started praying, basically throughout the day, that I would get the chance to talk to him, and that I would have the courage to take it and do so.

So long story short, by definite divine intervention, I did get the chance to talk to him, and we went on a walk together after ward prayer, and we chatted about stuff for a bit, about Andy and his challenges with being engaged (Isaac is actually really good friends with Andy), and other things. Then it finally came time to stop stalling and just ask him what I needed to ask him.

So the three questions that I wanted answers to were these:

1. Have you ever been interested in me, like it has seemed like you have been? and if so, why didn't you ever do anything?

2. Are you really dating Kindal?

3. If so, why are you still flirting with me?

So I started by telling him that I think he is a great guy, and that I have a lot of respect for him and admire him in a lot of ways, and that over the last few months as we've become better friends I have been interested in him, off and on, and it has seemed very much like he's been interested in me, but then he never did anything, so I was confused, so I just wanted to know if he ever really was interested in me.

At this point he was like, "Is this where I respond?" :) and I was like "yes, this is where you respond." :)

And then he said, "First of all, I want to thank you for being so straight forward." I was pleasantly surprised by this reaction. And then he said something to the effect of, "And in answer to your question, yes."

And I was like, "Do you want to elaborate on that...?":)

And I don't remember what exactly he said to that, but I asked him why he never did anything, and he said how people do funny things sometimes, or something to that effect, and also referred to the rough ex-engagement he had gone through, that he had confided in me about back in like February, and how he was now more scared/cautious to do anything with girls. And I could understand that, it made sense.

We ended up talking for a long time, about various things. I asked about the whole sarcasm thing, and why he does that with me?? He said he didn't know, with a smile, and I asked him if he did that with anyone else, and he said no, except a little with Catherine, but just because she is so ridiculous, he said. Around this time he looked at me and said, "You are really fun," in a really sincere, fun way, and I knew he meant it, wholeheartedly, and I was really flattered. Because he is really fun.

So then I asked him what is going on with Kindal (earlier in the evening, after the fireside that night, I passed him in the JSB, and we were both alone, and he was like, "by the way, in answer your question, no, we're not dating." And I was like, "really?" I was really surprised. And he said, "No, at least not yet." And he mentioned how she had just gone out of town for a while, and they weren't yet.) So now I needed to know exactly what was going on between him and Kindal. Then it seems like he paused for a second and said this is top secret. And then looked at me and said, "Are you a talker?" and I said, "no." And he said, "K, I because I trust you." Something like that. I was flattered, and glad, at that too. He then proceeded to tell me that basically he started dating Kindal, to essentially try it out, and that he has since decided that he doesn't want to date her. Specifically for reasons like he doesn't want certain girls to raise his kids. That sounds a lot more harsh than it is or was. Anyway, so that was a surprise too, and good to know, and really good to hear.

We ended up sitting down on a curb and chatting for longer. We talked about his crisis/breakup with his ex-fiance, because I asked him more about it. I am grateful that he trusts me enough to confide in me like he has.

I then approached the subject of the present and how he feels now about me, by asking him if he is still interested. He was like, "you mean, like am I still attracted to you?" And in my head I was like, well, no, that's not what I'm asking, but since you mentioned it, sure, you can answer that question...:) But I just said, "Well, yeah, is there still interest there?" And he said, "yes, I'm still attracted to you."

Huh. What do you say to that. Or do at that point? So I just sat there, in silence, thinking of what to say or do. I think I even said, "huh" as I thought. This was just not what I had expected to hear, and I didn't quite know what to do or think. I mean it was really flattering and fun to hear, but what do you do..? Then he was like, "You?" and I said, "Yeah, I mean, I'm interested to see where things could go.."

Then after some more silence, I was like, "Is there anything you want to do about this..?" Yeah.. And he was, "Well, the week and a half makes it hard.." He was to be leaving in a week and a half for Israel for a month, to see if he wanted to go there for grad school, for two years.

Then he asked me my thoughts on it, and I said yeah, the week and a half makes it hard. And then I said, "So I'm going to leave the ball in your court." And he was like, "Well, if the ball is in my court, I feel like I shouldn't leave you hanging.." And I didn't want him to feel pressured or anything, about it, so I was like, "No, no, you don't need to give me an answer, or decide anything right now, that's not..no..."

So that was basically what we ended at. Not too much more was said. After all, what more could be said, really. So we got up and walked back, talking about just other various things.

After getting home I felt like I had this huge load lifted off my shoulders. I was literally elated! It felt SOOO good to have had that conversation with him and get all my questions answered, let alone to learn that he in fact had been interested, and was still currently attracted to him. Wow, I sure got lucky. But I really was so so blessed to have the opportunity that night to talk to him, and for how well it went.

President Hutchings' Homecoming

Today was one of the greatest days of my life since my mission. It was my mission president's homecoming.

It was in Lehi, and even my parents came, which meant a lot to me, and I loved. I texted my mom and dad tonight to thank them for coming and tell them that it really meant a lot to me that they wanted to be there and that they got to see a glimpse of why my mission meant the world to me. And mom responded with this text, I always want to remember it.

"Thanks! We are really glad we came, too. It was a very special experience for us. We can see why you loved your MP and wife so much. What great people! And the spirit of your mission was definitely there. Yes, we can see why you loved it so much, and why you had such a hard time leaving it-they did too. Thanks for letting us be there! Love, Mom and Dad. PS-Did you have fun afterward?"

That text meant a lot to me, that she can hopefully understand better now why it was so hard for me to come home. I had a really hard time coming home from my mission, harder than a lot of people. And I wasn't myself for a while after, especially at home with my parents. I know they were worried about me and didn't know what to do with me. And at the time I just missed my mission so much and wanted them to understand why, but they never really asked, or even asked about my mission much, which hurt. I don't think they meant it that way, but I felt like they didn't (or Mom, specifically) want to hear about the most incredible experience I had just had, which meant the world to me, and was all I knew then.

I've since been able to try to understand the situation from their side better, plus being home for so long, I've definitely adjusted by now, but it's still not a pleasant memory. So that's partly why it meant to much for mom and dad to be there, to see that they wanted to experience more of my mission and meet the man that means the world to me, my mission president.

The meeting was so neat. Andrew Jackson drove up there with me, and we got there early for the choir rehearsal. Any who wanted to sang in the missionary choir a rendition of "Ye Elders of Israel" that Sister Heidenrich (?) arranged. So we arrived and I headed up to the front, and Pres. Hutchings was in the aisle, so I got to see and hug him again, which I loved.

Oh--so last night Emily had arranged a fun sisters social event with Pres. and Sister Hutchings, where any sisters nearby, or who wanted to come, met them at Farr's ice cream place, by the mall, and we got to see them for the first time since they got home. It was soooo so great to see them. When I walked in that door, I saw Sister Hutchings first, talking to Kayla Bueler (Rothlisberger now) and hugged them, and she pointed to where the rest were, at the back, and I looked back there, and saw Pres., who was looking at me, and we made eye contact, and I got so excited and started kind of running back to him, and he stood up and put his ice cream down and came around the trash and we hugged, and it was so exciting.

I ended up sitting down, and then he specifically came over and was like, "I need to sit by Sister Gurr," or "I need to talk to Sister Gurr" or something like that, and came over and sat kiddie corner to me, and asked me about the PA situation (he was going to write one of my letters of rec.), and I told him the whole situation of now trying to decide between nursing and PA and liking different things about both. He's a great listener, he sits there and will listen to you 100% and he makes you feel like you are worth a million bucks and like he has all the time in the world for you. I love him.

Unfortunately he didn't solve my problem, but I'm glad I was able to talk to him about it. He told me some great things about PAs and about one of his sons in law or bros in law or someone who is a PA and loves it. ...(sigh)..I don't know what to be...

So then we kind of all just chatted, and it was so fun! I talked a lot with Kayla (Sister Buhler), which was really great to, and Sister Lutz even was there! And it was just like old times, it was so so fun to have her there!

So anyway, back to today. So Pres. Hutchings hugged me again when he saw me as I walked up the aisle to the front of the chapel to practice, and I just love hugging him. I love him so much and I know he loves me, and it is so priceless to me, his hugs now, cuz I couldn't hug him for so long (except the one hug at the airport from him that I will never forget, where we were both just crying).

We practiced, and then the meeting started, and I sat by Sister Lutz (now Evans) and her husband, Kyle, which was so neat to sit with her again. Cassie (Sister Thacker) sat by me til we sang.

The first thing in the program was our song, which mom and dad said sounded really great. I couldn't get through the last verse without crying, which probably started it all..

Then Sister Hutchings spoke, and started out by speaking about how amazing the missionaries are and stuff like that, which really got me crying. She is an amazing speaker, I love listening to her. She never stutters or says um or pauses, she just speaks slow and steady and with such confidence and testimony. She is so sweet, I love her too, of course.

Then it was the "original six" that sang, from the original traveling group of "Songs of the Savior" and they sang "I Know He Lives," and it was beautiful. Maybe even more beautiful than on the mission. :) But wow, such a beautiful song and spirit, and voices.

Then it was President and he technically had five minutes left, and I was hoping he would talk longer, because I love listening to him, he is such a spiritually powerful man. We were blessed to listen to him for about twenty minutes, and I cried through much of his talk. He started out by not even being able to speak, he was so emotional and choked up, which made me cry a ton. The meeting, and especially him speaking and the sadness they had in being home from their mission completely brought back the emotions of sadness from when I came home, and I just feel for them. But I was sure a water works.

He ended up telling just a few specific stories of missionaries and one of them was of my sweet Sister Rigley, and how she changed and how her testimony basically grew from the ground up over her mission. That was neat to hear about again, I'm so proud of her. And he also told about when we filled the font, just because I felt prompted to, and then found no one to baptize, and then found and baptized the Ward family before I went home. I love him so much for how he got me through that hard time of not finding anyone to baptize, and the care he had for me/us, so much that he prayed that night about our situation and why it happened that way, and for what he taught me. As he told it today, the Lord told him (and he told me) the "My ways are not your ways," and that it wasn't that someone was supposed to be baptized that night, but that the Lord wanted to see if I would do it, fill the font. And then because of that act of faith, I was blessed with being able to baptize a family before I went home (which, as Pres. tells it, was one of my greatest desires on the mission.). That was such an incredible, sacred, special experience, because of the emotions of it, being so crushed and confused as to why I was so prompted to fill the font, and the Conleys came and everything, and we invited everyone we could think of that could qualify, to be baptized that night, and then no one was. To the incredible blessings we saw in the next couple weeks with teaching and baptizing the Wards, and having Pres. there all along the way and care so much about me/us and recognize and point out that connection and direct blessing of my act of faith. He said that after the font-filling experience, that Bishop Day called him and told him he had never seen a greater act of faith in any missionary (something to that effect). That meant a lot to hear too, Bishop Day was so special to me too, I loved him. But Pres. has never forgot that whole experience (he has referred to it multiple times in conversation with me since, and apparently would tell it periodically to missionaries) and it meant more to me than I can say that that was one of the few stories he chose to share today.

I of course was an emotional wreck by the end of his talk, and kept crying even through the song and prayer. I eventually got myself under control, and I walked up with my parents so they could meet President Hutchings. That was a neat experience in itself, he bent down and side-hugged me (he was still on the stand, we were on the ground) when we all started talking. He said many really nice things about me, called me a "pistol." :)

Afterward there was a social thing, with food at like a reception place down the street, where we had lunch and got to socialize and Andrew showed the slideshow he made for them. It was really fun to catch up with missionaries, and so great to spend more time with President.

We were there basically until everyone else left, minus the senior missionaries helping with the food and cleaning up, and when I finally got to talk to Pres. he hugged me again and said "thank you for waiting around," and sorry that I haven't been able to talk to you, or something to that effect. That meant a lot to me, I felt like he really wanted more time to talk with me, specifically. Elder Santos' wife, Ashley, was there with me, waiting to ride home with us, which might have been why Pres. and I didn't really talk much more, she talked with him some, and mostly I just listened in, but that was enough for me. I just love being with him. I've missed him so much. I told him I was so glad that they were back, that I'd been waiting like a year and a half for them to come home.:) And that I was sad for them, but glad. As we stood there we would say a few things, and at one point he just gave me a side hug as we were standing there, just like we were old buddies. I love him so much, there are not words to describe. I would tell him anything, talk to him about anything. I miss being around him and talking to him regularly as a missionary. But it was so so good to see and be with them, so good.

I got his and Sister Hutchings new numbers from him, and he said, "Call anytime, day or night, you know that." And I do, I know he really would welcome any call from me, from anyone really, at anytime and for any reason. And he would completely give me his whole attention and care about everything I said. He is amazing. I love him so much.

Today was amazing. It was like being in this happy place away from the cares and worries of my life or the world. And when I got back to Provo, it felt funny, kind of like a let down. And I thought to myself, "back to reality."

The Isaac saga thickens

So I've been so frustrated with Isaac, right? Well, I talked to Emily and Thomas (McConkie) about him the other night and as much as I would like to say I just don't care and whatever, but in all honesty, I do care. Isaac is a great guy, and I enjoy being with him. I have a lot of respect for him in a lot of ways.If we could just go back to how things were before all this sarcasm business, things could be so good. And I really would like to see where things could go with him.

Anyway, so I talked to them about him, and kind of voiced my frustrations to them. And Thomas, being the great voice of reason that he always is, convinced me that I really need to talk to him. So I decided the next time I get a chance, I would. If for nothing else, to find out if there was really anything there between us for him, and if not, no big deal, I'll just move on.

So I've been thinking a lot about him and about the situation, and on the way home from our RS sleepover at the Becksteads this morning, as I was in the car with Jenny from the ward, we were talking about dating and I ended up telling her all about the Isaac situation and my issues and frustrations and then at the end I told her who I was talking about.

She then proceeded to tell me that basically he actually just got with someone, like just barely this week. That there's a girl that's liked him and kind of been trying for months for him, and he's not done anything with her either, until somehow I guess they just barely got together.

Wow. Ouch. Ouch? How do I react to that.

Bummer.

At first it was okay, it maybe explained some things.

The rest of the car ride I just tried to brush it off, and told Jenny I was glad she told me, that it was good to know. And that was true. I was so curious to know who it was, she was in our ward and she lives in BDA, I got that much out of her, but she wouldn't tell me who it is.

However, I figured out that, at least I'm pretty dang sure, that it's Kindal. Which is fine.

But then when I got home it set in. I felt rejected. Again.

And that kind of put me in a bummer mood all day. Plus I never really had any stimulating social interaction today, which didn't help. I don't have classes on fridays (today), so I don't see class mates, but I was on campus for a few hours, but still nothing much. I got a lot done, but was also alone with my thoughts pretty much the whole day too.

I thought a lot about how much I would like to be in a relationship, or even just have a good guy friend, that I could hang out with and see often, who would like to see me often too. I so crave even just a friendship like that. I really don't have any good guy friends, not ones outside of classes. And I miss that. I miss feeling wanted to be around by guys, to just hang out or whatever.

But I guess part of it is that I'm at an age where I don't just hang out...I dunno, no...actually I think a more part of it is that I just don't know a lot of guys that are older, or at least my age, that I would want to hang out with all the time. No, I guess I just really just don't have good guy friends. I just don't have a group of guy friends anymore, all the guys that I used to be good friends with before my mission have gotten married or moved away. Bummer.

It's kind of a lonely time of life I'm in right now. And I'm really not always depressed like this, which is probably how I sound here, or a lot lately. But I just really would love to be done with the single scene. I just don't have any really good friends, that aren't married. I really don't. I know a bunch of people in the ward and wherever, and have a bunch of friends, but none really that I hang out with all the time or confide in regularly. And I want that so bad.

And I know it'll come and it'll happen when it's supposed to, and that my life is very in God's hands, but it's just hard to wait, y'know?

Oh, so by this afternoon I wasn't feeling quite so down about the Isaac thing. Depending on the minute I feel like Kindal is better for him anyway. He was a music major and is very into music, and she is very musically talented too. I like music, but I'm more athletic than musical, I would say. Anyway, things like that. But I also have kind of decided that maybe he has been interested in me but hasn't known how I felt, so has been scared to do anything. I've analyzed events from the Manti Pageant trip last weekend over and over, coming to multiple conclusions, including my last clue to that it is Kindal. But things he did that trip, I just can't help but think he feels something for me. Maybe she was just more forward with him. I'm not one to compete at all, but this time I kind of feel like trying. So this afternoon I texted a few people a mass text, inviting them to come scalp tickets with us (Jessica and me) tomorrow for the Stadium of Fire, and I texted him too, but I personalized his. I wanted to see what he would say. Oh, and he's up in Lake Tahoe for the weekend (at least), which I knew, but I wanted to invite him anyway, to see what he would say. Is that bad?

He responded very quickly actually, and said, "I would love to, but I'm in Lake Tahoe with my family."

It made me feel good that he at least said he would love to.

So I responded and said Fun, yada yada, and that we'll just have to do something again later. And is he up there just for the weekend?

I suddenly felt brave and bold and didn't really care that that was more forward than I've probably ever been with him (essentially wanting to know when he'd be back, and suggesting I wanted to do something later).

He said, "Yep, indeed," which I took to mean yes, he'll be there the weekend, and indeed, we would have to do something later. But that may have been like a general yeah, sure... I kind of wanted to see what he'd say and do with that because of this recent development with Kindal (or so I'm assuming).

Anyway, now all I can do is wait til he gets back and see what happens and hope I get a chance to talk to him before they become a public item.

Ok, I gotta go to bed now. Hopefully tomorrow will be more lively and fun. Today was a good day though, I got a lot done, and the temple was nice.